Some of you have noticed that I have pulled away from Youtube. I’m still amenable to posting the occasional video here and there, but for the most part I am out of the Youtube game. I think in general, the online world is not a realm I particularly enjoy. I haven’t had any social media accounts since 2019. I used to be pretty active on Reddit as well, but haven’t gone on Reddit in probably over a year by this point. I’m going to continue blogging, but I’ve been really enjoying forming connections with people here in the real world.
I’ve been exploring the internet since the mid 1990s. I remember being in an AOL chat room just before midnight on NYE 1999, counting down to Y2K with a group of strangers just to suddenly lose my connection and think maybe that was it! It was a great space to learn about myself, to learn about other people, and to experience things in the mysticism/occult sphere that I otherwise wouldn’t have had access to. It still is to some extent, which is why I want to keep this blog going. The things that have lessened the enjoyment for me are the same things that are bothering everyone else: rampant plagiarism, AI generated content, Russian/Chinese bots, as well as a rise in charlatanism in the online realm.
So I’ve been spending more and more time getting to know people here in the real world. There was a time in my life where I thought I was just way too weird for the average person, but even after moving to a small town in rural Virginia, I’ve surrounded myself with a great group of friends who are just as weird as I am. I’ve lived here for almost three years now and I’ve learned two very important lessons:
- Looks can absolutely be deceiving! I’ve been routinely surprised by how many normal-seeming people are into all the same things I am. I’m also really enjoying the “double agent” vibe I get from them. I’ve been able to have a different experience being friends with more discreet people and am learning new lessons as a result of it.
- You have to be willing to be vulnerable and take a chance of showing the real you if you want real fulfillment in your life. Anyone with a trauma history knows how hard it is to be vulnerable. And the truth is, you WILL get rejected by some people if you do this, but you will also be opening yourself up to something indescribable with the rest. It’s just not possible to have a happy meaningful life while keeping your guard up.
Being out here in the real world, I’ve also been connecting with people of all different age groups. Having deep meaningful conversations with people 65+, I can tell you that there is a lot of survivorship in that age group. This is something I’ve been connecting more to myself since turning 40. Just the fact that you don’t make it to a certain age without some kind of survival skills. On the other end of the spectrum, I’ve also been routinely impressed by Gen Z. Their Gen X parents must have done something right! Are there some confidence issues there? For sure, but I think that may be more of a symptom of being in a generation that’s much more aware and observant. I feel very optimistic about the impact they will have on the world.
I am still working on my book and am making good progress on it! I REALLY love how it’s shaping up and am excited to see it in it’s final edit! That being said, I still have a lot of writing to do and am only about halfway through the first draft. I am also strongly considering participating in a psychic fair this Spring/Summer and seeing what it’s like to do mediumship in that kind of environment. Last year I went to a few different ones to check them out and I’m thinking I might be ready. I’ll let you guys know once anything is official!
